Wanting to learn about ADD a condition I suffer from, I came across this mental health forum (http://www.psychforums.com).

After reading the parts that were relevant to me I decided on a bit of a voyeurism. This is a forum where people are ultra sincere and forthcoming.

What I read was shocking to say the least and led me to question the premise that all the fucked up things going on in the white world have there root in the Jews.

Some of the murders that we comment on at VNN are not occuring because of multicult propaganda, but because either the murderer or the white victim is a spaz.

Schizophrenia

[color="Blue"]I see shadows and bugs on the walls and i see things move around a lot. Sometimes i see blood on the walls. One time, i saw a woman looking at me from a window, aty first i thought she was real, but when i looked back , i saw her arm and it was covered in blood, and her face was kind've purplish-blue, like she was dead.

when i close my eyes, its like there is a tv screen behind my eye lids. I see all kinds of strange visions that i cant even really describe

more than visuals, i have lots of voices and body hallucinations

[color="Black"]This may or may not have anything to do with my 'problem'... But i've been seeing and hearing people since I was about 7 years old. Apparently, I have a man in his 20's who follows me everywhere, and he believes me to be his girlfriend. One night, I awoke suddenly to "I want to be in a relationship with you.." These sights and sounds don't turn on and off. They happen randomly, which scares me even more than the hallucinations. Once, I saw a black shadowy man (like a silhouette, crawl out of my bathroom on his stomach with his elbows.

I really don't want this to get out-of-hand, and that is why i'm reaching out. I really appreciate your kindness!

[color="Red"]Briefly put, my fiancee snapped, in an instant, and went psychotic. He physically held me hostage in his room, forced me down, and threatened to kill me, other people in the apartment and himself. He was completely delusional and I'm lucky I wasn't badly hurt because he pulled out a knife at one point. He would talk in a complete growl, like he was demon possessed. It faded very slowly and about an hour later he was almost back to normal and fell asleep. I would've called the cops but I was scared he would hurt me if he saw me leave.

I fell asleep and when we woke up he was completely normal and horrified at what had happened. I don't know what to do for him. I have seen short glimpses of this psychotic mood before but never to this degree. It seems like it was exacerbated by a combination of stress, self-loathing, and alcohol.

Sex Addiction (This may explain the race mixers)

[color="Blue"]help please as my son surfing porn sites n he is only 12 yrs
all the while my son is playing online game n i was quite comfortable wit it as he loves to read books a lot. i tot he still young n would not surf those porn sites. but yestersday morning to my horror my antivirus was uninstalled and the porn pop out sites came out frequently, i checked the history, full of porn sites visited, i confronted him and he admitted and promised wont visiting those sites again, but again i checked the history ( i deleted those sites morning) later on at night the sites shown again i really dont know wht to do. please advice, tq

[color="Magenta"]Hi,
I'm a single female that needs to be satisfied with oral (cunninglingus) all the time. I love to have oral being performed on me. Now i masterbate about every 3 hours. I am always in the mood for some action. I masterbated so much yesterday my clit was raw and swollen. I'm into rough oral. I like being bitten and teased. Is there anything i can do??

[color="DarkRed"]Hello, I have this addiction, i prefer sex with strangers more so than with my partner(husband) I am careful in preventing STD's but the anxiety associated with looking and getting is driving me crazy!!! I get obsessed and look online in instant message systems, at adult sites and sometimes find it and sometimes not. If my husband knew i'd be gone. The thrill of the find and sexual tension release is what excites me the most.........how does one STOP???? I never feel fullfilled sexually with my husband; I used to but this craving for stranger sex is overwhelming and can get dangerous I know. I have met at least 50 men in the last few years with never a problem, just hot great stress release, not too many men turn down a sexual encounter believe me! So.where does on start to stop the insanity??? I am educated, only work part time so as to have time.........help!! before i get myself caught in a situation I can't get out of! thanks J

[color="Gray"] am in recovery for sex addiction. One thing I have never told anyone because I find it very embarassing and shameful is that I crave giving oral sex on guys, especially if I don't know them.

I haven't done this for quite a while and the desire has lessened as a result of working on addiction recovery, but I still have to constantly turn over this desire.

I can't help but think maybe I was molested or something as a child. I know my brother was, and apparently I was there when it happened, but I don't remember it. I first remember having this compulsion when I was around 9, when I actually performed oral on my dad while he was sleeping. Something drove me to do this, and I ran to my room terrified and ashamed. I also performed oral at the request of a peer when I was around 10 (no orgasm in either case).

Does anyone else have this problem, or any feedback? I hate being like this, feeling like a have a perverted characteristic.

Rape trauma i.e black on white rape

When I was raped, I didn't follow through with filing charges and all that. I'm a college student, and so is my rapist, and even though he used to be my next door neighbor I've never run into him more times than I have since after the rape occurred. This past week I saw him about three out of the five days, and every time he'll stop what he's doing to look at me. I feel like his gaze cuts right through me from all the way across the room. Yesterday was really scary, we had a fire drill in my building (the new building I moved to after the rape), and my room is on the corner. I stepped out into the hallway and saw him standing in the door to the stairwell. He saw me as soon as I came out and just stood there looking at me. He was talking to someone, I didn't see who, but his eyes were on me. I stood there for a few seconds in my doorway, then hurriedly locked my door and went down the hall to the exit.

So now he knows where I live. I don't know what the hell he was doing in my building to begin with. I can't pretend it doesn't effect me every time I see him. I can't transfer to another school, though; I can't afford to go anywhere else. What can I do to make just the sight of him less intimidating?

[color="Red"] was raped my first time at a state hosp when i was 13. i was raped again 7 months ago. i still have nightmares about them occationally and wake up in swets. i have tried to talk through it to my last concelor, but was unable to recieve any feed back accept "it's not your fault". that's not what i need. i need to know that these ppl wont come back and try to hurt both my mom and me. i've moved, but you can get everyone's address at anywho.com ... oh god i'm so afraid. i have had nightmares about being in a room and singing, then in the next moment, strapped to a bed and a shadow come's in telling me how beautiful i am. then he comes closer and closer, then as he starts to sit down, i wake up. i don't want to feel like this anymore. i'm terrified of people (guys in particular). my perforance for my significant other would be femal... my last rape was at a party when i got too drunk and collapsed on the floor. i couldn't talk, all i could do is stare at the ceilling. when is it normal to trust the sex of another person after this has happened? am i abnormal, or dignified in the way i feel? i'm so lost...

Posted: Sat Sep 15, 2007 9:36 pm Post subject: Toddler: a raped victim

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[color="SandyBrown"]hi everybody. i wont make the story long, just ask me if you need something else to know to help me out with this issue.

a three-year old girl was raped by 5 men (ages between 27-29). she has a severe and multiple vaginal laceration. the 5 accused were already arrested. but there were no witnesses in the crime. no trace of semen (probably they were wearing condoms)however when the child was given a picture of 10 men wearing white shirts, she pointed out 5 of them. the police shuffled and reshuffled the pictures but the child still points out the same men. there will be a preliminary hearing this monday (sept 17,07). the prosecutor needs to convince the presiding judge that the child is telling us the truth...

my questions are:
1. how sharp is the memory of a toddler?

2. are they able to remember a recent traumatic event without burrying them to their subconscious mind?

3. are toddlers already capabale of burying this traumatic event?

if tehre are links that you can give me, please do, it will be a great help... thanks

Drug addiction

Hello, This is my first time to this forum and was hoping I could get some advice.

My husband and I have been married for 9 years. He has been addicted to marijuana since he was 19. When we met I didn't realize the extent of his addiction. At first I thought well this is no big deal...I can deal with it...well now I can't!

He hasn't worked in 2 years and stays home, stoned, all day long. When I ask him how can smoke it all day every day..he tells me he absolutely LOVES weed.

I love the man I married ( not the stoner), as his wife I want to help him, but I feel I have done everything I know how to get him some help... I even almost lost my job 2 months ago because I stayed home to help when he was trying to quit and had severe DT's (vomiting, sweating, cold shakes)

We've talked about things and I tell him how I feel about it, and at times he says OK,OK I'm quitting, but then his "friends" tell him I'm being selfish and that I don't want him to have fun and he believes them. I'm graduating nursing school soon and I'm ready to have fun, travel and enjoy life.

He tells me when I start making more money he wants to start growing it...That's the last straw, I'm not going to be the "drug" house!!!

I don't know how to handle this...Do any of you have any advice you might be able to give me?????

MOM/CRACK
HELLO... I NEED EVERYONES OPINION. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. IM 26 YRS OLD AND MY MOTHER IS ADDICTED TO SMOKING CRACK. SHE HAS ALSO BEEN DIAGNOSED AS SCHIZOPHRENIC. MY MOTHER WAS THE BEST BUT WHEN HER AND MY FATHER GOT DIVORCED SHE HAD A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN AT WHICH TIME SHE BEGAN USING DRUGS.

FOR THE PAST 10 YRS SHE HAS SUFFERED WITH SOME TYPE OF ADDICTION OFF AND ON. SHE STARTED OUT WITH HEROIN. WE HAVE PUT HER IN DIFFERENT TREATMENT PROGRAMS SOME OF WHICH WORKED BUT ONLY TEMPORARILY. SHE WOULD GET HER LIFE TOGETHER AND THEN MONTHS DOWN THE LINE RELAPSE. THIS IS ABOUT THE 3RD OR FOURTH TIME WE ARE DEALING WITH THIS. SHE'S STOLEN FROM US(ME, MY SIS AND DAD) LIED, AND PUT US THRU A LOT.

THIS LAST TIME AROUND SHE SPENT SOMETIME HOMELESS BUT GUILT AND LOVE MADE US BRING HER IN. ALLOWING HER TO STAY HOME CAME WITH THE AGREEMENT THAT SHE GET HELP AGAIN. SHE AGREED AND DECIDED TO START TREATMENT IN A METHODONE CLINIC. HER ADDICTION AND MY SUFFERING HAS CONVINCED ME TO GO TO SCHOOL TO BE AN ADDICTIONS COUSELOR.

HOWEVER THIS IS MY PROBLEM. MY MOTHER HAS BEEN IN A METHODONE PROGRAM FOR MORE THAN 2 YRS. ITS NOT HELPING HER BECAUSE SHE'S ON MAINTENANCE AND IS NOW SMOKING CRACK. I HAVE FOUND CRACK PIPES AND KNOW FOR A FACT THAT SHE IS USING. SHE DENIES EVERYTHING AND SWEARS THAT SHES CLEAN. WE ALL FEEL EXHAUSTED AND ALMOST FEEL LIKE THERE IS NO CHANGING HER AND WE ALL JUST KINDA DEAL WITH IT. MORALLY I FEEL LIKE CRAP BECAUSE ALTHOUGH WE HAVE BEEN DOWN THIS ROAD SO SO MANY TIMES, I FEEL LIKE WHAT KIND OF COUSELOR WOULD I BE IF I CANT EVEN HELP MY MOTHER EVEN THOUGH I JUST STARTED MY CAREER CHANGE. WHAT DO I DO? SHES MY MOTHER....I LOVE HER BUT AT THE RATE SHES GOING I DONT SEE HER AROUND 5 YRS FROM NOW. IS IT IMPOSSIBLE TO HELP SOMEONE WHO DOES NOT WANT HELP?

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