Sure, most of you on VNN say 'what were you doing going to church in the first place?'
Well, I did. I began as a Baptist, got tired of all the talk of 'salvation' and shocked my family by becoming a Methodist in a fit of youthful rebellion. I drifted away from church, but in the late 80's when I lived in Boston, i went to a Unitarian church. It was historic, I liked the minister's sermons, and the music was very beautiful and well performed.

When I moved back to Missouri, I wasn't that interested in Unitarianism, and went to the Episcopal church. I liked the liturgy, music, and the decorum. Episcopalians, you know, are the elite. When I moved back to St. Louis in 2001, I went to a posh church in a fancy suburb, and enjoyed all of the above, even singing in the choir one summer.

At the same time, I'm skeptical of Christianity. I appreciate the traditional forms, but also have to agree with Alex. But it was a good social outlet.
That changed with Coronavirus. When it was increasing in March, the church still held services, and when some people feared drinking from a common chalice for the Eucharist, the bulletin said ' Christians have been drinking from a common cup for centuries, and still manage to die at the same rate and pace as the general population.'
I thought that was funny.
Shortly after, however, the Bishop of Missouri banned all services, and you had to go to online services. I didn't watch them, so for months I wasn't going. It didn't exactly break my heart, as I had other things to do.
In late summer, the church could do indoor services, but you were had to wear a mask, have your temperature taken, and keep social distance. Also, no music, a very abbreviated Eucharist, with kits available for consumption. A kit of bread and wine? sounds like C rations in the army.
I didn't go. I felt it was overreacting, and I noticed how the churches simply caved in...especially the mainline, protestant liberal ones. Just folded.
Then the Bishop again ordered churches to stop indoor services. My church did outdoor services, but I'd lost interest.

Finally, the bishop retired, and they have a new Missouri bishop: a black guy from Barbados, a big advocate on homosexual rights and LGBT rights. He's married, has a 'husband' and they adopted two children.

I decided that was it. A black, then one that was queer, and married to another queer...that was too much in-your-face for me, and he continued the ban on indoor services. So, the congregation gathers in 25 degree weather, and it's really a shadow of the former services. Even Midnight Christmas service was at night, outdoors. No; it just didn't do it for me. Buggering is, after all, a sin.

It's thoughtful this black queer was elected by the state on first ballot; Episcopalians are 98 percent white, affluent, and they choose this thing to be their bishop.

So, in a year of thinking and change, I don't go to church anymore. I still believe in God or least a spiritual presence, but not in churches. It's worth noting how in this Coronavirus plague, the churches simply folded. There was a lot of complaining about cancelling Christmas, but they did the same with Easter, in a heartbeat. it makes me wonder how really devout most Christians are, and I'd say not much. Probably I'm like them in that I like the outward ceremony more then a devout interpretation of the Bible, and Episcopalians are pretty worldly...they joke about it all the time, and yes, they're the upper class. Sen. Danforth goes to our church, and the Danforth family runs Washington U., so there you go.

But, the queer thing is a line I won't cross. I didn't leave the church, it left me. It only highlights that religion...organized Christian religion...is dead.
It seems the mainline churches are just a conduit for feeding us blacks, queers, and deviants, and, yes, all that Jew worship, which Alex said is most of Christianity anyway.
It goes along with the recent election, in that all of us WN and, to a larger extent, whites, understand that our institutions are our enemies. Trump's time was also a final collapse of the system offering us any kind of meaningful sanctuary and place. Something new is afoot, and it's anti-white, and those who hate whites make no bones about it.
Like I said in earlier posts, Obama really opened these people up. It like they smell blood.

So, there it is. I'm not depressed or hopeless. I feel stronger letting go of something that has no societal value to me, especially a church that breaks one of their major tenets.
If whites are to survive, there's going to have to be a lot of jettisoning useless and cumbersome ideals and comforts in order for us to get a clear head and survive and, we hope, prevail.
End of sermon. Selah. Your turn.